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{August 2, 2012}   Ding! Level 27!

Today is my birthday.

I think normal people react to their birthdays with happiness and enthusiasm.

Personally, my birthday has always had drama linked to it, so I don’t really celebrate it. Last year I was told if I didn’t have a party my sister and her friends would take me to this local AWFUL country western bar that would make me want to tear out my ears and eyes. So I had a BBQ. There was good times and not so good times.


(ok, I’ll stop with the gifs now. I’m a gif addict. I’m sorry.)

I’m tired of being 26 though, so now it’s time to ding at level 27. +5 health, +2 mana. Upgrades include a new spine, new podcast, new novel and new website.

One thing I have come to realize is how important certain people in my life are. To not embarrass them I won’t name names, but I probably wouldn’t have made it to today without them. Something that isn’t talked about much (or I’ve touched on but never really got into how bad it actually is) is the soul crushing depression that hits when going major medical issues and/or life changes. 26 was a hard year. It was a needed year, because I have learned from it. I’ve grown from it. There are moments and things that I regret, but I can’t dwell on it.

So here’s what I did learn.

♪ Some people change, but mostly they don’t. Battling addiction is hard, even after the first few years pass. Don’t take it for granted that you did it, but remember that you have to keep doing it.

♫ Art is my passion. Writing, Singing, Acting, Dancing, Directing…all of it. It is what I do, it is what I will do for the rest of my life. There is no point in pretending that I will be happy in a cubical.

♪♫ I don’t have to push myself so hard. I break my spine that way. Also anger the brain tumor and get sick a lot. I need to not do that.

♪♫♪ Stop dwelling on the past, you can’t change it. Life’s too short to be unhappy. So quit being unhappy and just be happy.

♪♫♫ The song “Who’s Next?!” by Porcelain Black is the best song to workout to. Make sure it is on your workout playlist 900 times.

♪♫♫♪ No matter what anyone says, you can do whatever you want to do. It might take more time than other things, it might be more work than other things. But be prepared for it, and go for it.

♪♫♫♫ The trains are always going to smell bad.

♫♫♫♫ Muay Thai probably saved my life, in a strange way. It helped me cope with the panic attacks, the depression and everything else. The tentative return date is September, after PAX. My physical therapist wants to see how I handle the 3 conventions in 2 weeks before giving me a for sure go ahead. I will never be able to compete again, but I can train and help train others. To get that far will be a blessing.

♪♫♫♫♫ Podcasting is probably the most fun thing next to conventions. Do that more.

♫♫♫♫♫ Don’t engage the trolls.

So what happens next?

This weekend involves wine, games and fun. I am not fearing anymore drama this weekend.

My schedule opens a bit, so I am going to write more for KryptonianSpade and more into Alternates (which is almost finished being mapped out!)

On August 21st I head to Orlando for Star Wars Celebration. From there, on the 28th I fly to Seattle (my first cross country flight ERMAHGERD) for PAX Dev and PAX Prime.

October I will be at New York Comic Con again!

I might have some announcements for November, if you’re in Texas keep an eye out 🙂

Moving forward, one day at a time.


Okay, I admit, that is bad even for me. Here is an actual picture to end this post with.




{September 12, 2010}   Battlestar Galactica: S2E1 Scattered

So here we are, I finally got a few hours that I’m not doing something or another that I can dedicate to you, BSG fans, as I will start up season 2.

I could put in some excuse here, but in all honesty I’ve just been busy. I really haven’t been home much this week and its been really nice out so I really haven’t wanted to be either. Its one of those moments where its a good thing I’m not getting paid for this (although if you would LIKE to start paying me for it, please feel free to contact me! I like making money!)

Now, with all that being said, I am starting a new full time job starting September 27th. My hours will no longer be as nice as they are now but I will be getting paid more. I like to think of making more money less stressful. So my tv time might be knocked down again until I manage the new schedule and whatnot.

All that cleared up? Good! Lets bring on the craziness that last season left us with!

Focus on the Colonel…makes sense….who else is going run things?

Commander with mustache is absolutely hilarious to me.

Boomer doesn’t remember…

Colonel has froze under pressure? How can one be a Colonel and freeze under pressure?

Oh I forgot Madam President is behind bars.

Colonel lost the fleet…thats usually not a good thing to do. Just saying.

While the intro goes on….Katee Sackhoff is going to be back on Big Bang Theory this season!

We’re back to the Cylon pregnancy thing…I’ve got some to say on this because I realize that they are supposed to be like Human but yeah…we’ll go back to it. It will take me longer to write about then I have time for right here.

Whore Cylon is mother of Baltars baby. Doesn’t anyone use condoms in space?

Chief doesn’t know about Boomer yet…he’s on the crash site, forgot about this.

Chickie who plays Helix….who is this? I’ve seen her before.

Ugh. Colonel Wife…she fills me with hate. Data either didn’t send out the correct coordinates, or Galacticas were outdated. Even so, Colonel should have checked.

Starbuck is still with Helo and Caprica-Boomer…

“I did it for nothing”
“Thats not true. You took a stand”
“Now look at us.”

Baltar’s hallucination-like things still confuse me.

Starbuck’s reaction to Caprica-Boomer is pretty much the same that I would have. Actually, its spot on to how I would react.

“Bitch took my ride”- awesome.

Apparently Commander and Colonel had some sort of issue when they were younger with the fleet.

A medic doing surgery? Nothing can go wrong there!

Ship-Boomer still has no recollection of anything.

Colonel still doesn’t realize this I think…

I would have shot her personally, but that might be acting on emotion. I think he’s thinking in the long run he can get info out of her but somehow I don’t think that will happen. She doesn’t remember things and she’s still considered a sleeper Cylon. At least thats what I think

Sorry, got distracted by the ambush on the Chief and Callie….sad to lose another character….whose name I unfortunatly can’t remember. Who was the attackers? He took on a lot of hits. Was that Racetrack?

Okay, since episode 1, Data has always come off as weird to me. I don’t know if its weird feeling of thinking he’s a Cylon or what but he always just has this thing where I’m not sure what to think of him. Like he’s up to something.

Commander is super against networking, Data wants to do it. See what I mean by thinking he’s up to something?

Just….out of curiosity wouldn’t it e easier to jump to the other coordinates? How many coordinates behind could they be? Shouldn’t there be record of it?

Holy Frak thats a lot of Cylons….

Cylon hackers….not shocking…they are more advanced then the humans….

Hooray Hot Dog!

Marine praying with Madam President is pretty cool.

Medic operating on Commander still seems like a bad idea to me.

Doesn’t look like any casualties on Human front……still no fleet? Oh nevermind, fleet! Hooray fleet is found!

Colonel was reinstated because of Commanders pull…but what did he do?

EEK! Cylon robots aboard the ship!


So, first off I want to talk about the whole Cylon pregnancy thing because otherwise I’ll forget.

I have a hard time believing Cylons get pregnant and have babies the same way we do. Why? BECAUSE THEY ARE FRAKING CYLONS. They are NOT human. In fact, when they are referred to as human, they get offended! They are a man-made creation that evolved. There is even Cylons who are still in the primitive form, as you see in this episode because now they are on board the ship, and I highly doubt anyone on the ship is going to go “Oh look, primitive Cylon, lets have some freaky robot sex!” and get one of them pregnant.

Now I get that the evolved updated Cylons have human bodies and organs for reasons that I could never understand other than to infiltrate the human race, but why give them the ability to copulate and reproduce with the enemy? What would be the point? Why give Sharon feelings and emotions that she will later have to deal with (like attempting suicide before her mission is complete..) once she figures out she’s a sleeper Cylon?

I really find it hard to believe that however the Cylons evolved, they decided to give the women eggs to breed half Cylon children with. Also, they are still computers. It might just be in their brains, they might not have super skeletons (although they might) they have organs (that will kill them at times) but they still aren’t human. They are still a computer.  So yes, I find the whole pregnancy hard to believe. Cylons have made it very clear that they want to wipe out the human race. They nothing to do with the humans anymore. Hense why the humans are running, and constantly battling them, and so on and so forth. They are a man-made invention that evolved. Now they are stronger and better than us and we are fighting for our lives. That is the basis on what BSG was started on. Why would they breed with the enemy?

So, back to the episode.

I really wish there was more history given. I think we’re going to find out more throughout the season, but apparently Commander and Colonel have shaky pasts with the fleet and I would really like to know what happened there.

The little bit of Starbuck, Helo and Caprica-Boomer is not enough for me. I really like those 3 characters and I wanted to see more of that.

The Colonel at the end of the episode says he wishes the Commander didn’t bring him back in, that he didn’t want to command the ship. Was it because of their friendship Commander brought him back, or was it because he believed he was meant to be a Colonel and bring on greater things?

Data still makes me wonder about things. I don’t know what it is about him but my gut feeling says to not trust him.

I’m sorry I can’t remember the names of the crash landed people on Kobol other than Chief, Callie and Baltar. Is that Helix and Crash? Who was the one that died? The one that is severely wounded?

Baltar and his hallucination things are really off the wall, and I still don’t know what to make of them.

I’m gong to try and watch the next episode tonight, but I make no promises. Til next time!

et cetera